疯狂的Fans:杨丽娟 VS Stan
最近网上都在关注刘德华的歌迷杨丽娟一家的疯狂行径。从94年杨丽娟开始迷上刘德华后,杨丽娟的父母宁愿倾家荡产甚至愿意去卖肾,也要达成女儿追星的梦想。12年执迷不悟,直到前不久,杨丽娟已如愿当面见到刘德华,却不料因为仍不满足于只与偶像留影纪念,其父在香港跳海自杀,并留下12页遗书大骂刘德华没人性没血性无良知,还留下遗愿希望刘德华再见女儿一面!而杨丽娟母女之后更是变本加厉,不仅要求刘德华要单独与她长时间会面,还要求他来给她父亲跪拜!在遭到拒绝之后,母女俩竟然狠心将其父弃尸于港,独自回到了深圳,并向刘德华提出了50万的索赔。疯狂的行径令人发指,唯有让我想到了当年那首由Eminem和Dido合作的“Stan”与之相比。
这是一首描写歌迷丧失理智疯狂追星最终导致悲剧的歌,有很强的故事性,听完让人心中很不是滋味。就如同现在的杨丽娟一样,这名叫Stan的歌迷给他崇拜的偶像Slim不断写信,但却始终没有得到回音,于是他在失去理智的情况下,在一个狂风暴雨的夜晚,酗酒驾车,并挟持自己已怀孕的女朋友一路狂奔,并在车中录下一盘无法寄出的磁带,其中充斥着对Slim怒骂。而失控的车辆最终破桥而出,坠入深海。
不久之后Slim终于在百忙中抽出时间给歌迷Stan回信,试图阻止这位痴迷的粉丝所做的傻事,希望他能真心关爱自己的女友,并拿新闻上播出的一名坠海的歌迷的疯狂行为为例,劝说这位歌迷要行事冷静,却后知后觉地意识到这正是他在回信的那个人——Stan。“……Come to think about, his name was.. it was you. Damn!.”
专辑中是由Eminem和Dido一起合作的,而这段视频是由Elton John和 Eminem合作的现场版,我更喜欢这个版本。这首歌朗朗上口,而且旋律缓慢,听起来并不是很费力。但我还是在网上找到了一份中文翻译,里面还有歌词的一些创作背景的介绍,可以更好的理解这个故事。下面就来欣赏这个悲剧故事——《Stan》吧.
Lyrics:
(with Elton John)
[instrumental for the first 0:19 of this song]
{*thunderstorm with rain fall in the background*}
{*piano plays softly leading up to Eminem's rap*}
[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't callin
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
but anyways; eff it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm 'bout to be a father
If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her? I'ma name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some {*silent*} who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground stuff that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the stuff you did with Rawkus too, that sh... was fat
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back
just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan
Lyrics
[Chorus: Elton John]
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
Oh I can't see at all!
And even if I could it would all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad
Not so bad..
[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad - I just think it's messed up you don't answer fans
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert
you didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man, he's only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you
for four hours and you just said, "No"
That's pretty crummy man - you're like his favorite idol
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad though, I just don't like bein lied to
Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you
you would write back - see I'm just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither;
he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what you're sayin in your songs
so when I have a crummy day, I drift away and put 'em on
Cause I don't really got {*edit*} else so that {*edit*} helps when I'm depressed
I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you tell it
My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does
She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up
You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Stan -- P.S. -- we should be together too
[Chorus: Elton John]
[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans
This'll be the last package I ever send your ass
It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters;
I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sendin you, I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now, I'm doin 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka, you dare me to drive?
You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"
about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drownin
but didn't, then Phil saw it all, then at a a show he found him?
That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from drownin
Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now, I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped +ALL+ of your pictures off the wall
I loved you Slim, we coulda been together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you go to sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
See Slim; {*screaming*} Shut up {*edited*}! I'm tryin to talk!
Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screamin in the trunk
but I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up, see I ain't like you
Cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, then she'll die too
Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh shoot, I forgot, how'm I supposed to send this tape out?
{*car tires squeal*} {*CRASH*}
.. {*brief silence*} .. {*LOUD splash*}
[Chorus: Elton John]
[Eminem]
Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?
Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that
and here's an autograph for your brother, I wrote it on a Starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta missed you
Don't think I did that sh... intentionally just to diss you
But what's this stuff you said about you like to cut your wrists too?
I say that stuff just clownin dawg, c'mon - how messed up is you?
You got some issues Stan, I think you need some counselin
to help your ass from bouncin off the walls when you get down some
And what's this junk about us meant to be together?
That type of crap'll make me not want us to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doin just fine
if you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan
why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy bit
I seen this one {*edit*} on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove this car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid
and in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to
Come to think about, his name was.. it was you
Damn!
{*audience screams and applauds*}
--------------------------中英文对照----------------------
{Eminem扮演歌迷Stan} 你好:Slim(Slim就是指Eminem,因为Eminem的专辑The Slim Shady,同时也应为Eminem有着不幸的童年,是个被人忽视无关紧要的家伙,引申为一个阴暗细小(Slim)的影子),我给你写了信但是仍然没有收到你的回复电话,我在信纸底部给你留了我的手机、拷机和电话。在秋天给你写了2封信,估计你肯定没有收到。可能是邮局或者哪里出错了。可能我写字太潦草,操,到底怎么回事。嗨,你的女儿怎么样?我的女朋友也怀孕了,我要做父亲了,我想给我女儿起名Bonnie(Eminem有首歌叫做Bonnie & Clyde,这里说明这个歌迷Stan是如何痴迷Eminem)。我也知道你叔父Ronnie的的事情了(Eminem的叔父Ronnie是Eminem的童年最好的好朋友,和Eminem年龄相仿,正是他努力发掘了Eminem的天赋并帮助他克服了人前表演紧张恐惧的不足,并帮助他走进演艺圈,后自杀,Eminem纹身来纪念Ronnie),为你难受。我有个朋友为了女人也自杀了。你可能每天会收到无数歌迷这样的来信,但我保证我是你最忠诚的歌迷。我甚至看过早期你和Rawkus唱片公司一起做的地下音乐表演。我的房间里到处是你的照片,希望你理解,给我回信。你最最最最忠实的歌迷, Stan。
{Eminem扮演歌迷Stan} 嗨Eminem,你仍然没有回复。我没有疯,我只是认为你不回复歌迷的信是槽糕的。如果你不想在演唱会散场的时候和我说话,没问题,但是你因该给我6岁的小弟弟Matthew签个名呀。我们在刺骨的寒冷中等了你4个小时,你只是说:不。***。你是我弟弟的偶像,他想将来和你一样,他比我更崇拜你。我很冷静,只是不想被欺骗。你看,我只是某种程度上喜欢你罢了。其实我和你一样对我父亲一无所知。他常欺骗和打骂妈妈。所以你的歌曲让我有同感。当我感到心情不好,我会离开人群,听你的CD,只有你的歌能够安慰我。在我胸口纹上了你的名字。有时我甚至割伤自己,看看会流多少血。这个就像注射毒品带来的肾上腺激素刺激快感一样。你的歌说的都是事实,这正是我尊敬你的地方。我女朋友很妒忌,因为我无时无刻不在说到你。你看,她和所有人一样都没有我了解你,他们不了解我们这样的人是如何长大的。你应该给我回电,我是你最最最最忠实的歌迷。
{Eminem扮演歌迷Stan} 嗨,你这狂傲自大不愿意回信的家伙,这是我最后一次给你写信了,你个鸟人。6个月了仍然没有回信,我真的不配你回信吗?你肯定收到我最近的2封信了,我地址写的很工整。现在我正在录音给你听。现在我在车里,高速公路上时速90英里,喝了五分之一瓶伏特加,你敢和我一起开车嘛?你肯定听过Phil Collins的歌 《In the Air of the Night》,说得是:有人快淹死了,却有个人见死不救,Phil Collins看见了这件事,然后在一次演唱会上他碰到了那个人。现在我的情形就是如此。你本来也可以救我不让我淹死,但是现在已经完了。我所要的只是你的一个狗屁回复,现在我完全绝望了。我希望你知道我已经扯下了我房间里所有你的海报。我爱你Eminem,我们应该在一起,想想吧。可是现在都让你给毁了,希望你的良知能够让你不得安宁,睡不好觉,做梦就梦到这些,让你透不过气。 {这时Dido扮演的Stan的女朋友在被Stan锁在汽车行李箱里面惨叫着}Stan大叫:闭嘴,贱人。嗨,Eminem ,你听到了吗?这是我的女朋友在行李箱里尖叫。我没有割破她的喉咙,只是把她绑起来了,我可不会像你那样(这里不知为何这么说,估计有典故,可惜没找到,可能Eminem曾经对他的女友施暴,这里在反省)。我要让她更痛苦,让她窒息而死。好了,我行动了,快到桥上了,****,我怎么把这个带子寄给你呢...(然后车飞出公路沉入河底,磁带后被警察取出)
{Eminem自己} 你好Stan,想尽早给你回信,可是太忙了。你说你女朋友怀孕了,现在她怎么样了?你对我太过奖了,连女儿的名字都准备和我有关。那次演唱会上我肯定没有注意到你,别认为我是故意不尊重你。但是你说你割腕,我可要说那只是个闹剧,你***现在怎么样了,好吗?Stan,我想你要去心里治疗,这能让你不要在沮丧的时候躁动不安。另外,你说什么狗屁“我们在一起”是什么意思?我可不愿意见有这种想法的变态歌迷。我真的认为你和你的女朋友是互相需要的,或许你该对她好点。希望能在你对自己做出蠢事之前让你能及时收到我的信。我相信你会好起来,如果你能放松一点的话。我很高兴我能激励你,但是Stan,你真的疯了吗?希望你明白,我不希望我的歌迷做出蠢事。 几个星期以前我看到一则新闻,有个鸟人喝醉了,把他女朋友铐在汽车行李箱里,然后把车从桥上开进了河里。那个女孩还是怀孕的,车里后来发现有盘磁带,警方没说那磁带是录给谁听得,只说了那个疯子的名字是....天哪,那就是你..........